im sorry for changing your impression of me.
i do not want it to happen this way too. not because im a irresponsible person.
this is just for fun, im not even suited for it in the first place.
you said that lots of money were spent on it, i knew it too.
but convincing me to go is not going to change my mindset.
im tired and i just want to stop here, you can think differently of me.
maybe whatever reasons i give will seem like crap and lies and excuses to you.
youre not me, you wont understand . this may sound crap to you so just ignore it.
and because of the guy who was dead during the tournament was partly the reason
why i stopped. you know how scared i am ? i know the money was quite alot.
and i wasted 2 years just like that. you asked me to continue to black belt.
why the need to ? the certificate wont be useful to me. it will be to you.
and maybe you can try working towards this as you possess the skills and strength.
im different from you, between you and me, your strength exceeded far more than me.
just think im a irresponsible person, im fine with it anyway.
i just want to tell you that i quitted for a reason. i know our friendship will not stay the same as before.
it may be destroyed. i consider it as part and parcel of life.
but i will still remember the times when we hang out, did crappy stuff, joked , laughed together.
we shared almost everything together. i will remember you as a girl who is a good confronter, counsellor, sister, and lastly a friend worth to be with. wish you luck in everything and good luck in whatever you do .